tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69588430301686990072024-02-20T10:44:36.738-08:00The Maniscalco Journey: Travel, Life and FamilyAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-4430343458546403122014-04-21T17:01:00.001-07:002014-04-21T17:01:17.799-07:00BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So I finally can say I have the happy ending to our long journey. We are FINALLY pregnant with TWIN BOYS! I am 17 weeks 3 days pregnant due September 26, 2014 and I'm feeling great. I'm so sorry it's taken me 4 months to post/give an update but we wanted to make sure this was real and that we told family and friends first. I do not wish what we went through on anyone but I believed in God's plan and although it wasn't on our time it was on His and it was perfect timing, we never gave up hope! I hope anyone going though this long and painful journey finds peace in their decision weather it's to keep moving forward with treatment or not. Throughout my journey, and even to this day, I have couples reaching out to me asking for advice and support and for that I am grateful that I am able to guide them and relate to their story to help them find hope and peace. Thank you to everyone who read and followed my blog about our journey to become a mommy and daddy xoxoAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-18987296030509186032014-01-11T08:21:00.002-08:002014-01-11T08:21:45.270-08:00CD22, 9dpo, 8dpiui, Praying for BFP!Through all this I learned a new language. A language I was unfamiliar with in the beginning of my journey but as time went on and I took more 'classes' I immersed myself more and more in the language I became a member of the world of infertility acronyms and now I am practically fluent. I can decode a sentence such as "TTC for 5 yrs, cd14, 2dpo, 1dpiui, BFP on cd24" just as you are reading these words I am typing.<br />
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Today I am 8 days post IUI and had blood work done yesterday to check my progesterone levels. The results came back at 16 so everything is perfect with those levels. I am still on the thyroid medicine which last time that was checked about a month ago it was at 1.6 which is also perfect. My days are crazy right now with everything I am required to remember to do. In the morning before I move or talk I have to check my BBT, after that have to take a thyroid pill (with plenty of water) an hour before I eat anything, my progesterone medicine has to be taken in the morning and at night spaced out 12 hours from each other so I must time that correctly each day twice a day, and then sometime throughout the day (after I eat) I take my pre-natal pills, I do blood work at the doctor office every few days and schedule acupuncture after work at least twice a week. We go back into Dr. Anderson's office in 6 days.... a week from yesterday, January 17, 2014 at 7am for the final blood work to see if all of this paid off. I will have the blood work done, go to work and they will call about 2pm with the results. I decided I am not going to answer the phone and asked them to leave the results on my voicemail and I will listen to it with Joey when I get home.... HE BETTER NOT BE FLYING A TRIP THAT DAY! I am so so so so so so so EXCITED and nervous! This IS it the moment we have been praying for every day, we ask all of our friends and family to pray, we have people at our Carlsbad and Mission Viejo church praying, we have our co-workers praying and best of all we have God! We know that He knows what is best for us and what our hearts desire. In 6 days I pray I can leave the infertility acronym club and finally upgrade to the mommy club, just 6 more days! xoxoAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-77296438967350643352014-01-01T17:15:00.000-08:002014-01-01T17:15:02.706-08:00Happy New YearHappy New Year!!!! Joey and I are so excited to see how God is going to bless us in 2014 with all the people praying for us.... means the world to Joey and I.<br />
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Last night was a lot of fun, while Joey was flying home from a trip to Aspen I met up with some of my girls friends. I met one for lunch with her boyfriend (I should be saying fiance.... hopefully soon) we had a great lunch and walked along the boardwalk in Carlsbad. After that I met another good friend and my bestie at a resort she was staying at to ring in the new year, so fun just hanging out with the girls for a bit. Once Joey landed we got ready and went over to our newlywed friends place, they recently bought, for a nice dinner party to ring in the new year, it was such a nice way to spend the last part of 2013. Tomorrow is my big day with the IUI in the morning and another IUI the following morning. I had my HCG trigger shot this morning, it was not painful going in but now (about 5 hours later) it feels like a horse kicked me where the shot was injected, very painful. I just took an OPK test and it came out positive so I did an emergency call to Dr. Anderson and he said that it is positive because of the HCG that we injected into my body and it was normal and to wait until tomorrow for the IUI. He said this was good and it means that the trigger shot is doing what it's suppose to be doing. Fingers crossed for tomorrow.... we will keep everyone posted.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-70087073552985221132013-12-27T21:32:00.000-08:002013-12-27T21:32:08.586-08:00Fight On.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;">Everything we're doing is worth the fight. Every second I temp, take meds, get injections of hormones, miss vacations for ultrasounds and blood work, I am doing for my little miracle. For some, it's easy to get pregnant. Others, people say it's impossible. I will not to give up. All the strength I am getting now I will need for years to come. First is the pregnancy.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;"> Pregnancy may tire me more than getting pregnant ever did. But I won't give up. Every second I want to quit, I don't because there is a little angel waiting to meet me, cheering me on as I battle my way through. After I see my bundle of joy and will have many trying days and nights.... But I won't give up. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;">Each and every day is a battle, but someday will look back and think "I made it through once, I can do it again." Remember that strength. Remember those tears. Remember why I started this journey to begin with.</span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-55722659382631048392013-12-26T20:31:00.001-08:002013-12-26T22:22:25.602-08:00IUI with Injectables CD 6Merry Christmas. Joey and I had wonderful Christmas spent with family. I'm off work for the next two weeks which is so nice but more of a reason I'm happy I'm off is for all the doctor appts we going to right now. Joey and I are doing an IUI with injectables this month. We have done 3 IUI's in the past taking Clomid but never with injectables. Today is cycle day (CD) 6 and day 4 of my injectables (Follistim). I had my 2nd ultrasound this morning and I am currently measuring 7 follicles on my right with the largest measuring 14x7mm and 12 follicles on the left with the largest measuring 14x10mm and my uterine lining measuring 6.4..... For the next 2 days we are continuing with the 100iu of Follistim and we have another ultrasound in two days to check the size of follicles and baseline blood work to check my estrogen levels and progesterone. We are praying that the smaller follicles catchup with the injection we did tonight and another one tomorrow night. I will update once we have our next ultrasound in 2 days, Saturday. Please pray for us that this time works..... we are so excited that this month will FINALLY be the month and all the bruising will fade away and we can finally begin our life as a family of 3. Joey has been an amazing nurse giving me my injections each evening. This has been an emotionally and financially draining process but we will do whatever it takes to meet our little miracle. We will never give up or lose hope. God has a plan for us and we believe it's to raise one of His children. Please keep us in your prayers.... xoxo<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-83021035299982321712013-11-11T17:34:00.002-08:002013-12-26T20:23:23.784-08:00Price Match<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Today I researched the internet all day and now am saving $400.00 on medications for next IUI with injectables cycle. MDR (the pharmacy that carries the fertility drugs) told me they price match.... if you know me you know I will research the heck out of the internet to find the best price and I did.... it took all day but I found a great deal, so excited! It's like couponing. And in the process I met a really nice lady who just got pregnant with twins with Dr. Anderson's help from doing an IUI with injectables with Follistim, HCG trigger shot and progesterone capsules. She reassured my concern with the amount of money we are spending to see Dr. Anderson that we have made the best choice because he is the best infertility doctor in OC. </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-20433088168523017602013-11-11T17:30:00.002-08:002013-11-11T17:32:13.489-08:00Jealous!<b>People often think I get jealous or angry when I see pregnant people or babies. My response: Not one person has it all. Just because one part of their life came easily to them, that doesn't mean the rest did. I have God, an incredible husband/marriage, a beautiful home, wonderful family and friends and an amazing job. And a baby is in my future, I just have to keep praying.</b>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-75935446097323075372013-11-03T08:48:00.002-08:002013-11-11T17:29:03.279-08:00Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy Results<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: georgia, 'times new roman', verdana; font-size: 16px; font-style: italic; line-height: 22px;">Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy went well. Doctor found a little endometriosis and lasered it away. Going in next week for the post-op and will find out the next step in our journey. Thank you to everyone who was praying for me yesterday and reached out to Joey and I to see how it went. It means the world to us. A special thanks to my mom and best friend Nikki for coming down to Newport Surgery Center to support me and a HUGE Thanks my AMAZING husband for being by my side and taking care of me through everything. xoxo</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px;">After thinking about the path we are going to embark on we pray for an answer or a sign of what God wants us to do. We have been praying from day one and are still hopeful that one day, and hopefully one day soon, we will be blessed with a baby of our own. With that being said on November 1, 2013 at 2:45pm I will be going under and Dr. Anderson will be performing a Laparoscopy in hopes that he finds something to finally explain the unexplained. Please keep us in your prayers and I will keep you posted on the outcome. xoxo</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-33858855441254452272013-10-07T16:02:00.001-07:002013-10-07T16:02:10.722-07:00Horror Stories.......<b>Baby showers! Oh where to begin. I have gotten so much better going to them, I would not say I look forward to them but it does not bother me as much anymore, that is until the end of one I attended a few weeks ago. </b><br />
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<b>Joey and arrived to the shower ready to enjoy ourselves, after hanging around for 4 hours we were getting ready to leave and I was saying goodbye to someone I have met a few times (It's the polite thing to do right?) As I'm saying goodbye, a random girl who I have never met is standing next to the person I am saying goodbye to looks over at me and asks, "So when are you due!?" To my surprise and confusion I gave a polite smile and kept the conversation going. She interrupted me again and said, "you must not have heard me, I said when are you due!" At this point I am so confused and lost, (I know what some of you are thinking.... sometimes innocent people mistake bigger girls for being pregnant..... NOT the case here considering I am 5'5" and weigh 115 pounds). I don't care how much bean dip I ate I know I did not look pregnant. So unless I was actually 5-6 months pregnant I knew at that point she heard about my infertility struggle {on top of not being able to handle her alcohol} and wanted to play a mean girls game. After I let it sink I just looked at her and said, "When the fertility drugs finally work" and walked away. I don't know what is wrong with people and way they have to be so cruel but there was no need for someone to make a joke out of my misfortune. </b><br />
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Like I mentioned above I am now full-time in my school district YAY!!!! I love my school so much and the people I work with is what makes the position over the top wonderful. When I go to work it doesn't seem like work, it's something I look forward to going to M-F. I could not ask for a better counseling department to work with. But there is a downside of getting the full-time position, since we live 120 miles from Newport I am no longer able to make that drive )I've done it for two years and I have killed me everyday) jk it was not that bad but I'm over it. So Joey and I are moving to OC..... Leaving SD is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, this is my home, I love it here, I'm so sad to be moving, Buttttt it's only an hour away and it's for the best, It's what we are meant to do right now. Everything has gone so smoothly with me getting this position and us finding a condo I know this is God's plan for us right now. It's bitter/sweet for sure.<br />
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Back to baby news, once again everyone is pregnant but only now it's tenfold. It's now my good friends and family members, before it was only random people I saw on the streets and at church or friends of friends but now it's people I have to interact with, people I see on a weekly basis, discussions I must engage in and overhear. I feel like I have gotten so much better with it though, I still don't want to discuss their pregnancy but I'm okay to be around them a little more. I have some friends who I know are scared to talk about the "baby subject" around me but I smile with the approval that I'm okay. Oh that reminds me, I had the nicest thing happen the other day. One of my co-workers and his wife recently found out they were having a baby and wanted to make the "FB announcement", but before they did they reached out to Joey and I to let us know first and give their encouragement to us. I just thought that was so sweet. We are not super close friends but rather than us seeing it on FB they went out of their way to express their empathy and just give us an FYI.<br />
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One last IUI in October, that will probably be the last one before moving on to IVF. Now that we are moving I will need to find a new fertility specialist which I am okay with. I liked Dr. Lori Arnold but with all the money we paid her with no success I don't think it will hurt to try someone new. I will try and update my blog a little more often, I know I am not very good about it, hehe. Well I'm off to enjoy the last week of my summer break with my hubby :) xoxo<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-556221848363774942013-07-02T08:50:00.001-07:002013-07-02T08:50:50.372-07:001 Year Wedding Anniversary Trip, June Lake/YosemiteJoey and I just got back from the most amazing places, June Lake and Yosemite. The water was as clear as the summer nights sky, the beauty of the trees and waterfalls were mesmerizing as the air was as crisp and clean as sheets coming fresh out of the dryer. June Lake is somewhere Joey traveled with his family growing up and every since we met talked about the sights and fishing June Lake offered. When we were there we saw deer, went on bike rides, went fishing (I caught the first fish) and went hiking to the peaks and valleys of surrounding mountains. Sitting there one summer night with the campfire lit and Joey and I roasting marshmallows I thought to myself, "wow has it really been one year already, oh how fast life goes by."<br />
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One of the days we were at June Lake we had a raft that we filled with air and put into the lake to go fishing off of, well that idea was very short lived, as soon as we got the raft into the water and we both got in it it began to deflate and with the slight breeze that was blowing as much and Joey tried to row we kept getting pushed back to shore. None-the-less it was a funny, yet embarrassing adventure. Lesson learned to blow up a raft you need more then a battery powered pump to keep afloat.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-24998337474661413632013-06-23T12:24:00.001-07:002013-06-23T12:24:15.898-07:00Baby, Baby- Stages of Faith Test<b>This morning at church it felt like God's message was directed perfectly to Joey and I. It felt like there was no one else in the room but me and God, and through Pastor Jason, He knew exactly what I needed to hear. We know God hears our cry of his help, feels the pain we experience yearning for a child and it's nice to hear His response. God gave us the dream to have a child, a dream that we will never stop dreaming, a life we will never stop hoping for, a love so strong for something that you can not see or feel, a decision to trust God's timing. We are taking a step of faith and make a decision to trust God, we know that God delays our dreams and allows us to experience difficulty, brings us to a dead end, but we also know that in the end God ALWAYS delivers in His time. </b><div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-31437819020085062182013-06-19T08:01:00.001-07:002013-06-19T08:01:25.167-07:00Adoption Orientation<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">After another failed IUI (3rd one to date) today is a big day for Joey and I, today we are attending an adoption orientation to get on a list for adopting a newborn baby in San Diego. I'm not sure what to expect or if I'm ready for this but we have been praying about a sign or direction and it seems like this is the current direction God is taking us. The first step is the orientation which we have scheduled for tonight at 5:30pm down in San Diego. At the orientation I was told we will receive an application and once we have it filled out and submitted then we complete a home study, where a adoption worker comes to our home and interviews us (both together and individually) a background check is completed, basically they look into every aspect of our lives, which we are fine with. There are a few other legal steps I'm not going to bore you with. once that is approved a and a match is made our baby is placed with us and we file a petition for adoption with the court. If successful, a final adoption order will be put on record by the court. We will get a new birth certificate for our baby and all our legal rights and responsibilities as parents will take effect....... And we will be a MOMMY AND A DADDY!!!! I'm being told that the paperwork along can take up to a year but we are willing to jump through every hoop and knock down every barrier put in our way. This is our journey for now, this is our focus, we have done everything possible from our end and now we are putting our faith and trust in God's hands because we know that He knows what is best for us. </span></b>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-42798580208964599162013-06-09T08:34:00.000-07:002013-06-09T10:48:11.484-07:00I am so done being preggo!<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: arial;">It seems like not that long ago I was commenting on her very first ultrasound photos and congratulating her on her pregnancy. She replied with a nice thank-you message, saying it had taken her and her husband nearly a year and a half to conceive their baby girl. She said she was at the point of total frustration when they got their BFP, and she wouldn't take this pregnancy, or anything that comes with it, for granted.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: arial;">But it seems that, somewhere along the way, everyone who has trouble getting pregnant forgets this promise. Soon after, they are bitching about morning sickness. Or how they "really wish" they could have just one drink. They are upset when their clothes don't fit anymore, or when they can no longer wear their wedding rings because their fingers are too swollen. They are secretly disappointed when the sex of the baby isn't what they wanted or predicted. And they promise "no more kids!" with every contraction. They tell childbirth horror stories to women who are pregnant with their first (or trying to conceive their first), and cry about not getting any sleep. They send out mass e-mails to their family and friends--with week by week updates on their child--along with at least ten photos of their baby doing pretty much the same thing in each one.<br /><br />It will take a lot of dedication, but when I am finally blessed with that moment--that moment when those two little lines appear on that stark-white stick--I am going to try my very hardest to enjoy and savor every moment of my pregnancy. From the morning sickness to the cankles, it will be a life-changing experience.<br /><br />And I can't wait to have it.</span></span></b>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-41152105780854611262013-06-08T18:44:00.001-07:002013-06-09T10:46:36.249-07:00The membership no one wants.<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sitting in the waiting room at the infertility office is an interesting experience. When I'm there, I feel like I'm a member of a secret society--a society where age, race, sex, religion, and socioeconomic background simply don't matter. We all sit quietly with our heads down. Occasionally we look up, glance around, and exchange an empathetic smile with another "member." We are all aiming for the same goal. Our membership cards come in the form of small, white pills and syringes. There are expensive dues that come along with this society, but we hope the payout will be worth it. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When one of us gets bad news, we know only the other members can truly understand the pain and suffering deep within our hearts. When one of us gets good news, we are sensitive to the others, who are always the first in line to congratulate us. Because they are the only ones who know how hard we've worked. We often don't need to say a word for other society members to understand how we feel. A look or a moment of silence is all we need to convey our emotions. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Some of us arrived here with our husbands. Others came alone. Some of us were born into this society, and all of us will die as members--regardless of whether or not we achieve our goal. Some of us will remain positive until the very end, finding hope and joy in every step along the way. Others will become calloused and bitter, angry at members who reached their goal and sad about the loss of something they have never felt. Some of us wear our membership on our sleeves. Others hide it beneath their layers of clothing, bringing it out only in their home or doctor's office where they feel most comfortable and secure. We are branded for life: infertile. It's like the scarlet letter. The letter, which was originally meant to shame her, becomes a symbol of Hester's identity. Instead of feeling guilt and isolation, she feels strength. Infertility is like this. We can let it make us feel like outcasts, or we can use it for good--to feel powerful when this disease makes us feel so powerless.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I curse my fate a lot. I've done it on this blog, to my husband, to my friends and family, and in the confines of my own head and aching heart. But being in the waiting room at the office made me feel at peace, like I was home with my people. As I sat there listening for my name to be called. I'm thankful to have the support system that I do in the infertility community. I have never met any of you, but you have been there for me in ways my real-life friends simply can't be. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: 'Heiti SC', Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #3d2b1f; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></b>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04145617285241572759noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6958843030168699007.post-79215799877623716042013-06-08T10:26:00.001-07:002013-10-13T14:00:00.007-07:00The Beginning......<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; line-height: 21px;"><u><b>The Beginning</b></u></span></span><br />
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">"</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Joey you are my dream come true, you are my world, you are the joy in my
heart, the laughter in my voice, and the smile on my face. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">The first time you kissed me I knew that we shared something special,
and it wasn't long after that I fell in love with you and realized that you are
the one that I was meant to spend my life with, I could see it in your eyes. I
could feel it in my heart. You are the most incredible man I have ever known,
and you make me feel amazing every single day, I am so excited, and completely
elated to be standing here with you today. You are the love of my life, my best
friend, my soulmate, my everything.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>That I will love you always, with my whole heart.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>That I will always be there for you, in good times and bad, may we
always laugh together like we do now, and may the stormy days we encounter and
the trials we face only make us stronger.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise to celebrate with you, to encourage you, to always believe in
you and to always be proud of the man you are.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise to comfort, support and defend you if life ever brings you
sorrow.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise to be forever faithful to you.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise that from this day forward I will always love, honor and
respect you, I will always stand by your side, there is nothing I won't do for you,
all of my life.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise to always listen to the words you speak, and listen even harder
for the ones that you don't.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>I promise to bring joy, strength and smiles into your life.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>May the bond that we make today, never be broken, and may it only grow
stronger for the rest of our lives, may we never forget how we felt the first
time we stared into each others eyes, the first time we said I love you and how
we feel standing here today, because our love is exactly that, Ours. And you
and I , and only you and I, have the ability to nourish it and make it strong
and grow. It is our strength that binds us and our love that will carry us
through, all the days of our lives.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-size: 13.0pt;"><b>You are where my
heart is, and the reason that I believe in love. As I have given you my hand to
hold, I give you my heart to keep."<o:p></o:p></b></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 1.4;">Within a few days of being married, we decide to start trying to have a baby. We didn't know what "infertility" entailed, maybe a few extra steps, some medicine, an extra trip to the doctors? Who knew I would end up giving myself shots. And so began our journey through infertility, that I thought [so naively] was not a big deal.</span></span></b></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b><br />Initially, it was not something we felt sad or worried about. I was not yet in the infertility trenches of yearning for a child. I was in the beginning stage of asking ourselves, how long will this really take? I will take <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">chlomid</span> pills, give it a whirl a few months and there you have it...we will make a baby. Uh, NOT what happened. </b></span></div>
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">After doing 4 cycles of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">chlomid</span> with no indications of HCG, it was time to be referred to an Infertility Specialist, Dr. Lori Arnold.<br /><br />This is when ALLLLLL the pieces began coming together to form the much needed BIG PICTURE for me. Here was the bottom line which finally became reality for me...it will be hard to get pregnant. Period.<br /><br />It is the strangest thing. When you talk to anyone who has had a similar journey, you realize they never really can forget. The sadness and pain, I mean. Someone in my church support group who has 4 children under 3 (triplets about to turn 3 and a 13 month old) still says it is hard to hear when people are pregnant. The same for me. And everyone I know seems to have a bun cooking or the timer just went off. But I will delve into that issue a little later. Just wanted you to get a sneak peek into the genesis of April becoming a mommy. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;"><br /></span></span></b><br />
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